The Limb

I did some research years ago about the role of a tree doctor. If a tree has a diseased limb it is absolute necessary to cut it off in order to save the tree. In this case, the limb is paying for its sexual promiscuity through its soul-level incongruity. I was given all manners of disease at the interference of this branch of my family. Of course, I never was told to be safe by the people who raised me. The sex talk never happened. After all, when you grow-up on a farm you learn about sex as a natural part of the Circle of Life.

It cost me my health...a lot...

It nearly cost me my life...and the life of someone I love dearly...

I was used as a scud missile to take down some unsavory characters...

Nationalists.

But, healing is possible...given enough time...the body will identify and remove foreign viruses, bacterial infections, and fungus. It just takes time. Time I have. Time I have allowed to Jesus -- the Great Doctor -- to use to heal me.

All these side effects, this insanity, this emotional-discontinuity, they are signs of disease -- from when I trusted people and they failed me -- in some cases out-rightly attempting germ warfare through the only means they could design -- setting me up with men who were unclean -- and pretending they had nothing to do with it -- even though the drugs were present and the fix was in.

This racist-branch and generation of my Paternal family -- still believe they can control the population -- by making horrendous choices of controlling other people. This is the limb God cut off my tree.

Like I said before...my Cowboy Boot...is by far the best of the lot. On the extended tree it is a second cousin-in-law once-removed, codenamed April, who has has saved her position in my life by showing me great generosity of Spirit. These two are the sprouts that grow from the trunk of the tree.

Because of these beautiful Souls, the family might learn to love me through these two awesome examples. The family might yet put forth that love behind regrowing the beauty the family lost when it turned from a much-simpler path.

All their hope lay within His heart.

There was never anything in their minds for me...until now...

~AC