Simply this...
Carefully given a chance I will speak to anyone who wants my attention and I will listen to anyone who wants my attention. But, I have about a 3 minute attention-span on a good day. That's why the leads fly out. I tap it, tap in, and tap out. Most of the criminals answer without meaning to and the dead know how precious it is to have a living person hear them so they are ready with their response of "yes."
I trust my intuition. It is one-step up from gut instinct. It comes from a similar development process except that it is psychological rather than physical. Meaning, I follow my heart and head balanced instead of waiting for that last cup of burnt, stale coffee to hit me wrong.
I still have 9 Minutes.
Now, how did I develop the heart-head balance?
Well, I started with the head...more out of external environmental factors than internal ones...
I started studying the words -- flipped them -- and applied the obvious truth of the physical clues of behavior. People blink when they lie. Only pathological liars can do it any other way. People who blink don't believe themselves. People who don't blink believe every blasted word.
But, why speak when you can telepathically communicate.
Because you can't lie when you are mind-to-mind, that's why.
4 Minutes.
I put myself in hard situations to see if I had any resilience. I dated people my parents disliked. I broke curfew. I refused to study and eventually stopped listening to my teachers altogether. The only thing I did was play piano to emote and follow the pattern of holding it in and blowing up later to see where the boundaries lay.
Found out there are really just self-imposed truths and consequences. As long as I could walk away from the beatings and hold my own against a couple of bullies I figured I was grown. That puts 17 in perspective.
Addendum:
If I can learn to control my anger, put the perspective in reality and the reality in perspective, chill it down without an anti-anxiety med, and still climb over the top of all the voices trying to hijack my thought processes, I might yet clear all the boards.
I have a lot of situations in connection.
Tennis is for love.
Chess is for all the cookies.
~AC
I still have 9 Minutes.
Now, how did I develop the heart-head balance?
Well, I started with the head...more out of external environmental factors than internal ones...
I started studying the words -- flipped them -- and applied the obvious truth of the physical clues of behavior. People blink when they lie. Only pathological liars can do it any other way. People who blink don't believe themselves. People who don't blink believe every blasted word.
But, why speak when you can telepathically communicate.
Because you can't lie when you are mind-to-mind, that's why.
4 Minutes.
I put myself in hard situations to see if I had any resilience. I dated people my parents disliked. I broke curfew. I refused to study and eventually stopped listening to my teachers altogether. The only thing I did was play piano to emote and follow the pattern of holding it in and blowing up later to see where the boundaries lay.
Found out there are really just self-imposed truths and consequences. As long as I could walk away from the beatings and hold my own against a couple of bullies I figured I was grown. That puts 17 in perspective.
Addendum:
If I can learn to control my anger, put the perspective in reality and the reality in perspective, chill it down without an anti-anxiety med, and still climb over the top of all the voices trying to hijack my thought processes, I might yet clear all the boards.
I have a lot of situations in connection.
Tennis is for love.
Chess is for all the cookies.
~AC
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