I suppose there is a faster way to psychological solvency. For instance, perhaps I might have succeeded in locating this path more quickly had I actually personally known a mentor in the field of psychic research. But, as it stands, I feel extremely blessed to have reached another moment of equilibrium.
I'm not sure if anti-psychotic medication is really necessary for all psychics or if it is just my luck to be stuck in a State that treats the gift with medical cynicism. After all, most of the cases of psychosis I have heard about deal with homelessness -- and often Veterans who have been left to their own devices to find psychological stability and failed.
As I mentioned a few days ago, rebuilding the Personality based on nothing more than vague clues paraded as facts -- real or imaginary -- is nearly impossible. After determining that I was hypnotized as a newborn, I realized I never really had a chance at a normal life. (What a precious creature...Donna?) But, then what is normal but a baseline of events over time?
I want to have success and I have found a career path that I can work as a volunteer and make a difference -- without standing out in public and waving a flag over my head proclaiming my egotistical importance. It just feels like the correct course of action at this time. Giving to victims and their families what I wish I had -- closure.
I guess I really want a place to belong at all points of time. Funny I should consider this a desire in life. Is it true most people are just living and present in their moments? Is this part of my over-rationalizing, over-analyzing personality? Thinking about it instead of doing it is an issue I face too often, it seems.
~AC
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