Crisis

They are telling me that the worst is over.

They are telling me that I can be happy.

They are telling me that Jesus loves me.

They are telling me that the trust I need is all within my heart.

They are telling me that I am capable of new life, new relationships, new careers.

They are telling me to act like I have some sense of self-preservation.

They are telling me to work out my happiness and pray for others.

They are telling me to be honest.

They are telling me to be smart and keep my mouth shut.

And I am telling them to mind their own business.

And then I am telling them to let me be.

And they are all correct.

And I am correct too.

So we are at an impass...

Wheels spinning.

Spinning wheel of fate.

A little longer, they are going to make sure I give up, and brute force me to be real.

And I am but they are going to be very sorry they forced my hand.

How many people are hurting now for the loss of the ones they love.

How many people now are crucifying their own spirit.

How many of us are in complete desperation and isolation.

How many of us built our own mental prisons.

Help me.

Help me help them.

Euthanization is not the answer.

The answer is compassion and truth.

Gentleness that I must learn within myself.

And caring that is the general focus of my heart.

~AC