So, he started asking questions, like where I am, and why I am in his head telling him things he should know...because...you know...he's played the game...he should totally see it coming, right?!
She'll hem and haw around it.
Lie to him bold-faced to keep her status-quo going.
Such a familiar dance...
I remember how stupid I felt.
How angry I was that I fell for it.
How much I loathed myself...for being trusting...open-hearted...giving...honest.
For believing I found someone like me.
It took a long time to get out of that hole.
Too long.
Then I read that sentence four lines up.
Trusting.
Open-hearted.
Giving.
Honest.
Why was I loathing myself for these things?
They are good personality traits. Lovely qualities to have to share with someone. The perfect recipe for a happily-ever-after home and dreams-do-come-true attitude.
Get out of the hole.
Self-pity and Loathing...
I wrote about that once too.
~AC
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